Worse thing is this is not even half of what i feel i don't feel relief i a little relief but i'm so stress out there is so much i want to say there is so much i want to share but i really need to get this out of my system but i guess i'm just not ready yetersday. I know when i'm ready i will burst and when i burst it would b easier to pick up the pieces. I just not ready. Maybe i need a change and real big change a dramatic change if only i knew what that change would be i really wish i knew :(