Life with regrets

I'm missing him dearly everyday and every ,it's so hard not being able to speak to him and being able to see him. i know i hurt him and I'm an truly sorry for what i did to him and know in my heart that he will never forget me or believe how sorry i am, but can i really blame. I know that no matter how much i try to fix things it, his mind is already mind up but i don't care i'm going to keep trying with the same intentions i had when i first meet him ' you will never know until you try'. I knew i loved him alot but i never really knew how much i really did until he was gone and now his gone i can't do anything with my self nor talk to anyone about how i feel because nobody understands they just saw a couple that argued a lot, a couple who where the opposites, a couple that didn't have a future because they were to much at stack but theirs more to it. it was we have that kept us together it the influences we have on each other, the fact that we could talk about anything and everything and not looking at each other in a different light nor judging each other in a way others would. He was like family to me he was part of my family and my family loved him and in my family it's always been hard to bring people home because of how they would react but the funny thing is that they didn't react they took time to get to no him which was weird but when i told then the news of the break up they were disappointed because they really liked him and fort it would last. i felt like i disappointed them. i wish i could have the chance to do things different i show him how much i really appreciate having him in my life and wish that i could give him the world that he give me...